A blog about mental health, self acceptance, and embracing all the magnificentally awkward moments along the way.
"Where perfectionism exists, shame is always lurking." -Brene Brown Today, one of my biggest shame monsters came out to play. I have a lot of these assholes (don't we all?) in a variety of shapes and sizes, colors and temperaments, but since becoming a parent this particular shame monster has become increasingly vicious. … Continue reading Shame Monster
This is May. The temperatures are rising. The birds are chirping. The flowers are blooming...mostly the dandelions in the yard because we haven't gotten even gotten the mower out or gassed or oiled or whatever you're supposed to do to summer-ize your mower LET ALONE taken steps to spray weed killer. We are the asshole … Continue reading This is May
I was going to write today. I really was. Well, I was going to write all week but today? Today I was really going to do it. Today I was going to be witty and insightful and I'd definitely make somebody cry. But then the kids let us sleep in and I'd basically be a … Continue reading I was Going to Write Today but…
I think somewhere out there are mothers who smell the way I thought motherhood would smell; of vanilla and fresh baked bread and warmth. I am jealous of these mothers. My own motherhood smells like the onions of a thousand meals permeating cracked skin--a thousand refused meals prepared lovingly or automatically or bitterly depending on … Continue reading The Smell of Motherhood
Check out part 1 and 2 of my harrowing exciting story first. Beer break over I returned to find I had enter in my kids ages to find people with kids of a similar age. Easy peasy! The rest of this was going to be a breeze, right? Wrong. The next step was to pick 3 descriptive categories called … Continue reading Mom Tinder Part 3 or I Can’t Make Technology Go
Catch up on part 1 here. The first step was to set up my profile pictures. I could choose up to 6. Enter problem number one. What pictures should I choose? Do I go with that cute pic from 2 years ago where I’m looking hot and skinny in my bikini even though my current shape … Continue reading Mom Tinder Part 2 or How to Meet Moms and Influence Absolutely No One
Making friends never used to be a problem for me. In high school I always had some activity keeping me connected to a group of friends with similar interests whether it was band, theater, or a tragically stereotypical goth stage. Once college rolled around there were intramurals and study groups and when all else failed … Continue reading Mom Tinder: Part One
I'll get back to my word of the year posts but today I need to get off track and talk about my beautiful, wonderful, totally driving me insane (insaner) two year old. Two and a half. There's a difference. See, three is coming hard down the track and the last few weeks have seen an … Continue reading Mom-Friend Blocked
Today I wasn't going to write because I had nothing deep or insightful to say. I tried. I watched an incredibly moving speech. I read inspirational quotes. I started delving into a post that would have been deep in subject but shallow in sincerity; it would have been my representative writing what she thought people … Continue reading Thanksgiving Neurosis
Growing up our house was always clean. Not the sterile-hovering behind you with a towel while you drank juice-Stepford wives kind of clean, but the comfortable-homey-warm kind of clean. The kind of clean where you knew you could still make messes but you never felt that itchy, claustrophobic feeling that comes with chaos and clutter. … Continue reading What I Mean when I say I’m Giving Up
An Awkwardly Magnificent Life 