A blog about mental health, self acceptance, and embracing all the magnificentally awkward moments along the way.
"Where perfectionism exists, shame is always lurking." -Brene Brown Today, one of my biggest shame monsters came out to play. I have a lot of these assholes (don't we all?) in a variety of shapes and sizes, colors and temperaments, but since becoming a parent this particular shame monster has become increasingly vicious. … Continue reading Shame Monster
We interrupt this Lizzo self love series with this nugget of wisdom from a 4 year old. Part 2 coming at you this week. A few weeks ago, my youngest watched the Little Mermaid for the first time. While he enjoyed it (cause duh, who doesn't love the soundtrack???) he was absolutely terrified of Ursula. … Continue reading Trying on Fear
It’s 2:30 in the morning and I’ve been picturing people falling to their deaths for two hours now. It won’t stop. I close my eyes and they come, unbidden, these horrific visions, this slow motion horror film unfolding before me with my loved ones playing the role of doomed victim. It’s like a view master … Continue reading SURPRISE! YOU HAVE OCD! or Why You Shouldn’t Let Your Therapist Read Your Articles
When does it happen? When do we start to lose our confidence...our belief that we are good and worthy and capable? Does it happen all at once? Or is it death by a thousand cuts? I think confidence is like a candle. How long it burns comes down to myriad factors: the size of the … Continue reading Confidence is like a Candle and I Think I’m from the Dollar Store
If there's anything my kids love it's looking back through old pictures of themselves. They're delighted by their own faces, enamored of their growth. I, on the other hand, am less than thrilled to take these walks down memory lane. For one it makes me nostalgic for babies and then my ovaries start twitching and … Continue reading I Want to Join Your Challenge (But I Can’t)
To say I'm disappointed is an understatement. In the last 3 days I lost 10 blog subscribers. 10. For a fledgling blogger with a very small following this felt absolutely devastating. For a brief moment I went into full on dramatic panic mode...what if this was the real message from above? A giant, blinking neon … Continue reading Staying Curious in the Face of Disappointment
Last week I got my first stitch fix in a loooong time. I love Stitch Fix but have a hard time paying the prices of most pieces so it's pretty rare I order a box. Last month they informed me they were waiving my styling fee (which happens if you wait long enough between … Continue reading Just Buy the Damn Clothes
When I was younger I, and everyone around me, assumed mental illness was just a place you visited. If you just saw the right therapist for long enough and maybe kicked it in gear with a little temporary pharmaceutical assistance, you'd pack your bags, hop on the happy bus and arrive back in the land … Continue reading Medicated
An Awkwardly Magnificent Life 