A blog about mental health, self acceptance, and embracing all the magnificentally awkward moments along the way.
I'm kind of a selfish person so I've been doing this thing for awhile where I hunt down moms with crying kids so I can tell them some version of the following: "You are doing great. This parenting thing can be a total shit show but you're killing it. Solidarity sister, we've all been there. … Continue reading Karma’s not Always a B
When does it happen? When do we start to lose our confidence...our belief that we are good and worthy and capable? Does it happen all at once? Or is it death by a thousand cuts? I think confidence is like a candle. How long it burns comes down to myriad factors: the size of the … Continue reading Confidence is like a Candle and I Think I’m from the Dollar Store
If there's anything my kids love it's looking back through old pictures of themselves. They're delighted by their own faces, enamored of their growth. I, on the other hand, am less than thrilled to take these walks down memory lane. For one it makes me nostalgic for babies and then my ovaries start twitching and … Continue reading I Want to Join Your Challenge (But I Can’t)
I think somewhere out there are mothers who smell the way I thought motherhood would smell; of vanilla and fresh baked bread and warmth. I am jealous of these mothers. My own motherhood smells like the onions of a thousand meals permeating cracked skin--a thousand refused meals prepared lovingly or automatically or bitterly depending on … Continue reading The Smell of Motherhood
Check out part 1 and 2 of my harrowing exciting story first. Beer break over I returned to find I had enter in my kids ages to find people with kids of a similar age. Easy peasy! The rest of this was going to be a breeze, right? Wrong. The next step was to pick 3 descriptive categories called … Continue reading Mom Tinder Part 3 or I Can’t Make Technology Go
Catch up on part 1 here. The first step was to set up my profile pictures. I could choose up to 6. Enter problem number one. What pictures should I choose? Do I go with that cute pic from 2 years ago where I’m looking hot and skinny in my bikini even though my current shape … Continue reading Mom Tinder Part 2 or How to Meet Moms and Influence Absolutely No One
Making friends never used to be a problem for me. In high school I always had some activity keeping me connected to a group of friends with similar interests whether it was band, theater, or a tragically stereotypical goth stage. Once college rolled around there were intramurals and study groups and when all else failed … Continue reading Mom Tinder: Part One
Whether it was a conceited boss, an ungrateful child or a partner who just assumed you’d take care of something without a word of thanks, everyone can recognize the maddening powerlessness of being taken for granted. It’s a universal experience and one I’m all too familiar with of late. It’s with great sorrow I admit … Continue reading Taken for Granted
It trickled in slowly, in pangs of loneliness and an insidious jealousy that speaks fluent inadequacy. "You will never be good enough," it whispered, "you will never be talented enough or smart enough. You will never, ever be enough."I saw it rolling in, heard its hiss and didn't worry too much. I've always felt a … Continue reading A New and Different Diagnosis or Hormones Gone Wild
To say I'm disappointed is an understatement. In the last 3 days I lost 10 blog subscribers. 10. For a fledgling blogger with a very small following this felt absolutely devastating. For a brief moment I went into full on dramatic panic mode...what if this was the real message from above? A giant, blinking neon … Continue reading Staying Curious in the Face of Disappointment
An Awkwardly Magnificent Life 